How I Want to be Remembered?

• I want to die living …
                  Each of us has different unique stories in life. And each of us has our own way of living it the best way we could. When I happened to visit one of my family’s friend  who is in comma stage in Davao Doctor Hospital’s ICU last September 26, 2010, I was amazed and touched by the number of people who came to support the family of the patient as well as prayed and wished for his fast recovery. Almost all of them uttered different heart warming stories about him, how good he was, how he influenced people, and how he had lived his GOD-cantered life. In short, he is a person who changes people. But unfortunately he died the day after.
                  From that scene, I asked myself, if ever I’m the one laying in that bed, struggling to live, would there be people that will stay late at night to watch for me, could there be people who will visit me and pray for my fast recovery? And when they do would they tell stories that would encouraged me to wake up in the depth of darkness?
                  There are a lot of questions I have in my mind, but the most critical and hardest question I should answer is that , am I ready to die at this very moment ? Have I lived my life to the fullest extent possible, that whatever may happens I would just die without any regrets? And could I proudly say that even that little span of time I spent on earth, my life blossomed, that it touches people’s hearts, and have I become productive worthy to be remembered by the people around me, and most especially by the people I loved?  
  “I remember what Naruto said, “I never get back on my word, that is my way of being a ninja”. like Naruto I want to remembered for the love that I gave; For the friendships that I made; For the caring and compassion that I showed towards others; For the happiness that never seemed to go away which I shared with every person that I possibly could; And for the faith and hope that never died inside me...
  My name would not sound music in their ears but I prefer to be a note that is part of their life’s music. I may not be the perfect person that everybody would like and love, but at least they would come to appreciate me as a person who became the best she could be. The girl who tried her best in everything she does, in her own way. I may not be the most obedient and loving daughter my family had but I hope they think of me as a daughter they can really be proud of. I maybe not have friends that appreciate the things I’ve done for them, and then later they would realize what my true purpose is. I, perhaps be remembered as a jolly and energetic person, but there will be someone that would say I’m not really that happy-go-lucky person, but a responsible one. Of course, there would be someone saying that there is an emotional person behind those happy and perverted faces I showed.

  I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her feeling is twisted, and even if her brain is so warp and hazy, but despite of that the one that could always brighten up a day even if she couldn't brighten her own. I probably wasn't the best but I was the best I could be.